My wife and I have been fans of Derek Webb for a very, very long time. In fact, I’ve only been to a handful of “concerts” or musical events and nearly half of them have been Webb’s (I’m doing a rough calculation here but I’ve been to about 7 or 8 performances in my lifetime and 3 of them were Derek’s).
That’s kind of a big deal since I’m not a super-fan of spending my time in that way (not against it as a whole – I’d just rather be sitting down in front of my notebook in my underwear writing software or blogging!).
Derek’s got a new album dropping soon titled I was wrong, I’m sorry & I love you and my wife has been part of their top-secret launch team (not so secret anymore since Derek tweeted the livestream last night accidentally) and it’s just deep.
It’s amazing how Derek cuts through the bullshit and goes straight for the soft tissue, the stuff that matters the most. I’ve always appreciated people like that who don’t beat around the bush or placate because they don’t want to be labeled in a certain way – they have heart and the gusto to just go for it.
What’s different about this album and Derek’s posture, though, is one of submission and humility. The title speaks to that directly but you’d have to listen to some of the lyrics to get a full picture. And even after you listen to them the first time you probably have to hit that replay button on the track more than a handful of times to get the full flavor – and even then you’re probably missing something.
He’s released a few videos already and is “dripping” the content out systematically via his launch team. Having my wife on the team gives me access to an “inside look” but honestly I’m too darn busy with my other stuff to catch all of it fully.
But the one or two times she’s grabbed me and told me to watch, listen, and understand I’ve taken it to heart – and I did. Powerful words prepared with vigorous affection and hope for reconciliation.
There has also been someone else who’s been “listening” and that’s our oldest, Roenne. Recently she made a mistake (and I honestly can’t remember what she did exactly) but I got upset and was angry. She was remorseful and wanted to reconcile with her Appa so she wrote me the above note and in only a way a child could offered it to me, unable to even look me in the eyes.
I was rong, I’m sroyy and I love you. To Appa. Roenne.
The sheer simplicity of Derek’s message and it’s meaning was able to translate to a mere child and yet, as adults, we know how difficult it really is to not just say these words but to fully grasp and reflect their meaning.
This is the heart of what is most brilliant about Derek’s writing and lyrical prose – it’s complex, complicated, and deeply nuanced, but it’s presentation is simple and easy to come to terms with at first pass. Most listeners will walk away feeling refreshed but for those that stick around you might travel down a rabbit hole that you weren’t intending to slip into.
Dangerous territory? For sure. Necessary for some of us? Absolutely.
I can think of many areas of my life where I need to recite, both to myself and to others, those magical and transformative words. Maybe… just maybe… you too?