Great Night with Su

Just wanted to get this down before I goto bed…

Had a great night with Su.  She had come back from Eric’s and asked if I had gotten any work done in japanese, studying that is, and, of course, I had not.  Sooo… we both headed to the library to do some studying.  We were there for more than 3 hours, and we did get some good studying done, but, we talked about a lot of stuff, and man, God, it is so fun to just chill with her and talk to her about You and what not.  We talked about our childhood, books we’ve read, our family, school, man, like, everything, our futures a little…  We have so many things in common, its sort of out of this world.  God, I am just becoming more… attracted to her every single day.  And, I was just sitting there and I didn’t have any lustful thoughts at all, I was just, well, ‘in love’ with her… and her character.  God, I just wanna ask You, if these feelings that I have for her… if they should not be there, take them from me.  I do not want them if they do not belong there.  I do not want them.  I’d rather give this relationship up then have it go in the wrong direction.  God, but, I see her, and I’m just… man, I have these feelings that I’ve never had for another women, that, are so different from the ones that I’ve had in the past.  They are true…  affection and adoration and respect.  God, I’m not sure where it will go.  Lord, guide me and keep us both safe.  Guard our hearts against each other and let us not be led astray from You.  You are more important to me than she is.  God, my God, You are my one.  You are my only.  God, just keep me righteous.  Keep Su righteous.  Bless our relationship as friends, and sister and brother in Christ, and may You guide it from there.  Keep us holy.  Lord, I pray that You will guide us with Your spirit.  And if these feelings I have for her… if they should not be there… take them away.  I do not want them.

But, Lord, my God…  She is just an incredible woman.

I walked her back to her dorm and said goodnight and left.  What an awesome time.  That was just fun.  Plain and simple fun.  And, lookit, its 4 in the morning and i have a japanese test in 5 hours… and I’m not completely prepared, but, I don’t care.  That night with Su, I wouldn’t trade for anything in this earth. 

Night Lord, keep watch over Your son, and love me Lord, like You always have…