Last Day Here

Last day here… Let’s make it count, ne?

Tim’s and Petakun’s D…

God:
(John too.)

As I mentioned a while ago, I had this sudden revelation reading Wild at Heart.. it totally explains my situation with my parents…

I stubbornly, violently broke off from my mother, and my dad wasn’t there to support me. Honestly.  But then on retrospect, I see God working too.. and truthfully again, I don’t wanna fix it; I didn’t cause the problem, I won’t do this with my children, but then again, it should change with me…. So it brings verses back that you John meditated on, as well as asked me to read also….

Ephesians 6:1 – Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. Honor your father and mother – which is the first commandment with a promise – that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on earth.

Colossians 3:20 – Children, obey your parents in everything, for this pleases the Lord.  

… This is so hard …. I’m so freakin stubborn most of the time, that nothign gets accomplished.. I know it’s wrong, and I’ll try to change it, but I just feel like that I’m not the one that caused this problem, so they shoudl be the ones to fix it. But.. it is something I have to change.. it is something I should not be feeling, .. it’ll just take a lot of time…

Matthew 10:34. – Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth.  I did not come to bring peace, but a sword.  For I have come to turn a man against his father, a daughter against her mother, a daughter in law against her mother in law, a man’s enemies will be the members of his own household.  Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me.  Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

ing.. this is one badass passage.. (sorry about my cussin’) but it is.. when I think of this.. i wonder if i’ll ever have to make this decision.. of course I will abondon all my family and friends to serve God… it’s already hard for me to leave my friends  as it is.. and to leave them for God would be no contest; I’ll definatly follow God.. but .. it’ll be hard, not the decision itself, but… But I figure, all my new friends are Christ centered, so… we’ll all have made the right decision and love God more than anyone anyway, so .. we’ll all be okay, right? maybe my insight is incorrect.. but .. God I follow after you…

So abuot my parents… I’ve been learning a lot. It is an issue i’ve avoided for so long… I’ll be okay, I’ll understand someday… it just seems so hard now…

Thanks.

da-IL

And…

good evening guys… or if you read this tomorrow, good morning or good afternoon… *sigh* which ever one it is. today i have decided to go through Ephesians. though i have read it before, it is a great chapter and i’m going to marinate on the readings that i go through… there really isn’t a set amount that im reading, i’m just gunna read until i find something i would like to meditate on… good for me, because there is a lot there. i hope you guys will enjoy my writings as i go through this awesome book.

Ephesians 1:4 “For he (God) chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. in LOVE he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will-to the prasie of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves.”

—— there is so much in this passage! i mean… gee.. jus to think… God chose US before the creation in the world to be perfect in his sight, though we may not be now, we will be when we get into heaven. HE LOVED us so much, he ADOPTED us as his sons… gosh.. that really hits home because you know, as an adoptee myself… i feel that. the love yo! the love. being able to be given LIFE. which God did for us through the death of his only son… Jesus blood for us so that we may come to know Him. stinkin amazing! gosh… man, i dunno how many times i get smacked in the face because i forget… and i then realize how much God truly love us, and how He sacrificed so much for us… his SON. am i worth that? i say now to you. yes. because HE LOVES.

1:8 “… that He (GOD) lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding.” —- heck yah boys! he DID lavish on us. he poured onto us so many blassings! how can this not be true? do you live an easy life? yes you do compared to millions. do you have a fmaily that loves you? do you have friends that care for you? do you have security? do you have… well so much, duh. but the only real things you need is JESUS. we got Him, heh, wut more can we ask for eh? right on!

1:13 “… Having belived, you were marked in him with a SEAL, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession…” – POSSESSION!!! we are owned my friends. we are marked with a seal forged from everlasting love by our God. wut more can i say? His love conquers all. even your sin. feel that boys. werddddddddd

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and, here’s an email from a good brother Eric Cho…

hey brotha man… what’s up… hope your summer is going well… whacha been up to while u’ve been home? are things goin alright? how’s da money raising coming? i hope u have enough support financially… i wish i could just give you the total money and send you off, but 1. i don’t hvae a job, and 2. i don’t have a job… hahaa… anyway…

i’m in metz now… made it here yesterday afternoon… been just getting oriented in the way that thigns go over here… it’s been quite a change from home… lots of things are interesting, to say the least…i’ve never really realized how hard it is to get around in france… my french is so lackluster… in germany, the people spoke pretty english pretty well, but no one speaks here… i’m gonna be on a self-taught crash course in french to get around… yo, you’ll be in my prayers with your missions, and i hope that you’re doing alright… if you’ve been down, which i don’t think is the case, but you never know, shoot me an email and i’ll pray for ya… same thing over here tho… i do got something that i would appreciate your prayers about… jen cho is getting on my nerves like you can not believe… haha… kinda funny to say, but it’s been very awkward… God obviously has a plan for me and her to be ‘friends’, since he arranged it for us that we’d be traveling together for most of the trip (unless somethign changes), we live next door to one another, and i bleive, we have 2 classes together… so i udnno… i need lots of patience with her… i’ve been getting realy angry with her attitude towards me, and it’s been pissing me off… but i know that i just need to be merciful towards her, but yea… God i think is teaching me a lot about how to deal with people like her.. anyway, if u got anything man, lemme know… i have a lot of time to walk aroudn here, and all i do is pray-walk… it’s def an asset to have to be able to walk aroudn as much as i’m going to be all summer long… aiight, enough of this… i gotta shoot some more emails out… God belss, and take care…

God Bless…
Eric Cho

…  that is kinda funny, but, I really don’t understand, well, like, inw hat way she is actually bothering him.  I can only imagine, cuase, I know Jen Cho… well, not that well, but, I do know how she can act… and, its a bit…  wild/strange/eccentric/moody sometimes… if that encapsulates anything…  God has a purpose bro, even if it is for tolerance and appreciation of differences…

Godspeed bro. 

I’ll write him an email later…  also, I’ll have to write another email out for the prayer list…  cause, i have two new additions!  Eric and Esther.  NICCEEEEEE…