This post is part of Project: Inception, written ~8 years ago. It has been untouched from its original, pseudonymous, form. It is also part of the larger “farewell” tour and countdown as I turn-off this blog and head to the metaverse where I will live out the rest of my wonderful days. I hope to see you there!
There’s something special about an aspie creative – beyond their autonomy and insane interest in mastery is this thing that I call sovereignty. And we have tons of it, built intrinsically within us we exude it in nearly everything we do.
We’re still very, very human, very frail and disfigured, sometimes both physically and mentally, and even timid and downtrodden, but within our spirit we are sovereign lords over all of what we do – sometimes we may forget it but it’s always there.
And we may not have come to realize it quite yet but the fact is that we were born to love who were are and what we do. It’s like the child of a king who has yet to fully realize how important his position and opportunity and responsibility really is. Overtime, as that child matures, they begin to put the pieces together, bit by bit, until lo and behold the throne. And even then they still spend the rest of their life living into that role being continuously sanctified through time.
This is what I mean by sovereignty. This is the missing piece that many people, autistics and NTs miss, and it’s a gift that an aspie can give others. You’ve experienced it, haven’t you? You’ve seen it most often in others who are deeply in-tune with the world, who live life fully, freely, and with what appears to be absolute abandon. They may be in love with their vocation but it’s more than that – they are in love with having a particular role within this timeframe, within this context, at this point in history, for these people, customers, and audience, and those that they serve. They understand their forever unique role and contribution and they find independence – they find freedom.
These people are infectious with their life. These people inspire, challenge, and literally move us to become better versions of ourselves. They do not seem to be held down by the man-made institutions of power nor are they disrespectful towards them. They live a lifestyle that accepts what is and at the same time pleasantly rejects anything that limits their raw potential. It’s not necessarily their gifts, their talents, or even their success at large – at the core of it all is their absolute freedom to be and to do, their autonomy, their sovereignty over who they are and their mastery of what they do and continue to do.
You see, it is ultimately their ability to create, to build, and to thrive without having to impress anyone or meet anyone expectations (or extrinsic motives and motivations) that we envy. It’s their ability to choose, without commercial intent, without coercion, without anything against their will and go and do, whether it’s their hobby on the weekends or what they do every single day. In a way, aspies are naturally built this way to begin with. I can do no other than simply do what I feel I am compelled to do. Where it goes all wrong is where the possible cost is the rejection of other people in pursuit of those things – so naturally we have a few things to work on here and there.
But we are a free people. We are liberated. And it’s what the world craves and it’s what the people who live here crave as well. Are you sovereign over who you are, what you do, and what you believe you are becoming? Are you in a position where you are undeniably thriving? Truly living in the moment and not in the past (or someone else’s past) and in the unknown and ambiguous future? Are you free of the cultural constructs that say you need to “clock in” here, there, and everywhere beyond just the 8:00am to 6:00pm shift?
That’s death. That’s anything but sovereign. That is you, chained to the floor, requesting you to perform your own death sentence. It’s demanding that you give up your passions, your desires, your interest in the beautiful and the freedom of true, unadulterated creativity. Can an aspie inspire you to be a much more fantastic version of yourself? Allow us to do so and watch us exercise our sovereignty.
It’s what the aspie creative has to offer the world. The moment we rise up, realize our unique position, our intimate circumstances that were once viewed as bleak and dreadful is now a crystal-clear call and opportunity to simply inspire. We should do our very best to help free those that are shackled to a tired and tireless world so that they can really live, be free, and sovereign.
What will it take? What will it cost? That’s up to you, but it is worth it. This is anything but chaos. It’s order, the way it should have always been, and the world desperately needs your sacrifice.