The Right Tune

Well, today has been pretty interesting thus far, got up around 7 to get a shower, cause i was feeling pretty icky and uh, I didn’t sleep that well, cause, all these people were in this hotel just partying and what not…  I guess, well, we have 3 days left until Christmas.  Hmm…  We got something to eat and we were off on the road again.  We went to Walt’s parents’ church this morning, and that was a pretty interesting experience.  This prebyterian church was had about 4500 members I believe, if I heard that right.  It was a very large main building and was very attractive inside.  I was impressed.  I think I was one of the only two asians in the entire building this morning.  Me and Jessica that is.  Oh well.  Every church needs a little color now and then…  :)  Haha… Watever.  Eh, so, yeah, the service was a true traditional service and what not.  Very predictable in order and worship.  But, as I was sitting there in the plumb middle of this huge sanctuary, It brought back memories of my childhood, growing up in this kinda of atmosphere.  I thought about how I was brought up in a traditional church setting and how little I got out of it.  Most likely, though, it was because I was immature and didn’t really wanna seek the Lord in that kinda of way in the first place.  I truly wonder if I would have warmed up to what I’ve become if I had stayed in that traditional style service.  Man, I love praise…!  I can’t get enough of singing with contemporary beats and music.  It’s just the kind of expression I need.  For me personally, hymnals are great and all, but, some of the traditional things are rather stale and boring.  But, they all have there purpose Lord, I know that.  I’m not bagging on it Lord, but, as You know, there are many ways to worship You, and my preference is that of something different of how I grew up.  Hmm…  But, truly, the stuff we sang today, I concentrated on the lyrics and what they were saying.  They did mean great things.  I was just a little thick-headed when I was young.  Oh well.  We sang “What Child Is This”, to the tune of “Greensleaves”… right?  Is that the right tune?  That is one of my favorite songs/hymnal tunes ever.  That is such a great song.  ah.  We had a baptism, which was nice.  I was sitting there looking at this couple and their child and I wondered when it would be me standing there.  The pastor said something about how they had come back from Texas to have their child baptized here.  It made me think… Where would I bring my child to be baptized…?  Nassau…?  I don’t think Lakewood… And I don’t know about KCPC…  Definitely not North Ave…  Man, some other church in the future I suppose.  After I’m married and have a good church home, maybe there I guess.  How far in the future could that be…?  Cool.  But, I just sat there staring at this little baby.  I want one.  Haha.  Oh well. Gotta find the right person first.  I wonder what she is doing right now.  As I take a look out my window in this big blue van, and as I stare out into the deep blue sky, I wonder if she is looking at the sky with me.  Am I looking in the same direction…?  Should i look out the other window?  God, Lord, Your plan for me is gonna be awesome.  I’m not worrying about it right now, I’m just having fun thinking about it.  Alright, well, the sermon was about “Coming Home For Christmas”.  His first words were “You all are distracted.”  And, yeah, I was.  I wasn’t even on the right level.  I had prayed to God as I first walked into the building and sat down.  I put my head in my hands and asked Him to just keep my mind and my heart open to the words that would be spoken today and not to be distracted and lose focus.  But, I had, and then the preacher came up and said those first words and it was like God was talking to me directly.  I was in His house, a different one than I had been in before, but, I have no reason or no excuse to lose focus just because I’m in familiar territory.  I truly believe that God had me be there for a reason and to just realize that there are many other houses of God out there.  To just have me come back home, so-to-speak.  And, the sermon was exactly about that.  Just how everything wants to come home.  To our place of origin.  I don’t know if the preacher really concentrated specifically on tying in how we should be seeking to go back to our Father, and that is our right home, but that’s the way I decided to see the message read to me.  He spoke more about coming home to a specific state or home home, like a house or mother’s home, or whatever.  I was just sitting there thinking, ‘well, I don’t really have this home home or whatever that I would really like to come back to.’  I have a home in Jacksonville, but, it’s not like i look forward to coming home there.  I love to see my family and what not, but, not the house, as this iconic thing that the preacher concentrated on.  I suppose that’s because I’ve moved around so much.  But, that’s the way I like it, and it helps me concentrate on the one true home that I’ll be going to in many years, God-willing.  Back to the Lord.  That’s gonna be awesome Lord, and man, I’d love to go there right now, but, I have so much left to do on this earth I believe, and with Your strength it will be done.  I can’t wait… But, at the same time, I can.  It’ll go by just at the right speed hopefully.  So, the service at this church, First Prebyterian Church of Greenville, South Carolina, was alright.  We headed out and watched the movie “Time and Tide” in the van.  What fun.  I got a turn to drive, and this is really funny… but, at the same time sort of frustrating.  Lord, You know I’m trying to do things right and just obey You more and the way You’d like me to be.  Being righteous, like David… That calls me to “obey the laws of the land in which I live.”  And, in this specific case, that means going the speedlimit.  Haha, its such a small thing, really, but, its the small things that will get us down.  So, for the first time in my entire life, I actually did the speedlimit on the highway.  And, at times, I was doing 55 mph because, that’s what the limit was at that time.  I could have gone faster, but, I didn’t want to.  Becuase, I know that i have to obey the laws and what not.  Man, it was sort of difficult.  I could see that my father, sitting in the passenger seat, was getting figety and restless.  He continued looking at how fast I was going and I could see he wasn’t to happy about the speed I was doing.  Man.  Wat the…  I was just sitting there, listening to music and driving, and I knew my father didn’t really appreciate me driving so slow and the speedlimit, but, I did.  I was sitting there, and I looked up into the sky and I got sort of frustrated and asked God why I had to go the speedlimit and if all this was just some stupid joke and that I really didnt’ need to obey this one stupid law…  I so wanted to just bust up to 75 or 80 mph, but, I didn’t.  I maintained 55 for some grueling 10 miles or so.  My mother was also restless as well, cause, she chimed in and was like, “I can take over for you soon.”  And, I was just like, yeah, ok, whenever.  Eventually, a rest stop came and my dad was like, “Uh, why dont’ you pull over here.”  I stopped and switched, and my mother drove and took off like a wild banshee. Man, it seemed like she wanted to make up for all those ‘lose miles’ and lost time that I put on.  Okay… whatever.  So, she was driving like 80.  Man, Lord, what can I say to that?  Do I rebuke my parents…?  Or just respect them?  God, this is so retarded.  It’s not even a big deal, but… in a way, it is.  It’s about the principle.  It’s about obeying the Lord.  I should really put my feelings aside and just be frank about it.  I guess I will.  Maybe… haha… *ugh…  Oh well.  Man, truly Lord, obeying you is difficult sometimes, but, I know it is worth it.  It is all worth it.  I have a sinful nature, but, I’m trying to better myself Lord.  I’m trying.  Just keep me strong and convicted.  I can do it.  It is for my own sake.  It is so worth it.  Ah… I’m listening to the song “Famous One”, man, this song is so good.  It rocks so steady.  God, GLORIOUS!  Great is Your fame beyond the earth!  Man, this song is so good.  I just wanna stand up and dance in Your name.  Next time there is a “Passion” concert or whatever, I have to go.  It sounds so good…


You are the Lord,
The Famous One! The Famous One!
Great is Your name in all the earth!

The heavens declare,
You’re Glorious! Glorious!
Great is Your fame beyond the earth!

You are the Lord,
The Famous One! The Famous one!
Great is Your name in all the earth!

The heavens declare,
You’re Glorious! Glorious!
Great is Your fame beyond the earth!

And for all You’ve done,
And yet to do,
With every breath I’m praising You,
Desire of nations and every heart,
You alone are God, You alone are God.

You are the Lord,
The Famous One! Famous One!
Great is Your name in all the earth!

The heavens declare,
You’re Glorious! Glorious!
Great is Your fame beyond the earth!

The morning star is shining thru,
And every eye is watching You,
Revealed by nature and miracles,
You are beautiful, You are beautiful!

The morning star is shining thru,
And every eye is watching You,
Revealed by nature and miracles,
You are beautiful, You are beautiful!

You are the Lord,
The Famous One! Famous One!
Great is Your name in all the earth!

The heavens declare,
You’re Glorious! Glorious!
Great is Your fame beyond the earth!

You are the Lord,
The Famous One! Famous One!
Great is Your name in all the earth!

The heavens declare,
You’re Glorious! Glorious!
Great is Your fame beyond the earth!

What an awesome song.  God, may I lift Your name on high!  You are truly great and glorious.  The Famous One You are.  You are everything Lord!  Nothing is impossible thru You.  Truly awesome.  Well, it seems that my father and mother have switched and now it is my father’s turn to speed down the highway.  Oh well.  Just watch over us Lord and keep us safe.  Let’s see…  Tom is reading some Stephen King book…  Debbie is sitting there doing nothing… and, haha, Jessica makes me smile… she’s passed out in the back sleeping.  Haha.  Mammy is reading a map, father is driving, I’m sitting here typing away, and uh, Petakun is somewhere snowboarding and being safe, hopefully.  I’m listening to “Starry Eyed Surprise” by Oakenfold.  FO sho.  I think I’m getting a headache.  I gotta put this down for a sec I guess.  Oh, I just wanted to like talk about the retreat some more, but, I dunno, not feeling it right now.  In a nutshell, the retreat was so good.  Just being with awesome brothers and sisters and being inspired to come closer to God, thru them.  God, just being with some of Your awesome disciples is sometimes the only thing I need to get myself motivated to further seek Your word for me.  These brothers and sisters are so on-fire for You.  I hope that many years from now, when I’m a 4th or 5th year, my walk with You could be as strong as that.  Lord, I know I can.  *sigh.  I’m not sure of what I wanna write anymore…  I’m gonna hibernate this lappy for a sec.  brb… or, well, whatever.

Well, it’s about 11 oclock at night.  We arrived at Barb and Gaylen’s house and we had a good dinner.  It’s been a long time since I’ve been here.  The house is getting smaller it seems as I grow older.  What’s the deal…  Doh, I’m gonna get online for a bit…