Uncertainty — 42

This post is part of Project: Inception, written ~8 years ago. It has been untouched from its original, pseudonymous, form. It is also part of the larger “farewell” tour and countdown as I turn-off this blog and head to the metaverse where I will live out the rest of my wonderful days. I hope to see you there!

On Uncertainty

The world is an uncertain place and despite our advances in science, medicine, and technology it continues to become more uncertain with every passing day. Our global ecosystem is the greatest example of the truism: “The more you know the more you realize how much you don’t know.”

The world is majority uncertain and we are the kings of knowing it. The aspie creative, in many respects, both fears and rejoices in this place. Where we falter and stumble with relationships, community, and social cues we excel in making the ambiguous come to light, discovering that which others would pass over without a second thought. I think of the many autistic people that have been the centerpieces of innovation and ingenuity, who have brought us many discovers in a variety of different subjects and fields.

Our goal is not unlike NTs – at the core we simply want to survive. Survive the next corporate meeting that’s going to force us into a meltdown or survive our own feelings of loneliness and despair. Perhaps even to survive our own obsessions and compulsions. We learn to manage the uncertainly as best we can and through trial and error and even a bit of therapy (and perhaps medicine although I haven’t tried it) we might find ourselves on the better side of evolution.

The root cause of much of our angst is just that: Uncertainty. We become flustered, upset, and of course in the worst of times have complete mind-bending meltdowns. So what has been our solution? We create elaborate schemes, plans, systems, workflows, methods, and strategies that are far too comprehensive for most people to even imagine or entertain. We create “exit” strategies to excuse us from social engagements and escape plans when the times of duress become too unbearable.

We devise, we engineer, we fabricate, construct, invent, and deploy our plans for every single possibility and their contingencies. If we’re lucky enough we’re able to deduce the simplest of solutions being the solution and I’ve likened this to having my own personal ORGS (Ockam’s Razor Guidance System) to develop the mechanics of the puzzle. The hypothesis with the fewest assumptions is typically the best one – or in other words, the simplest explanation is the most likely the one that should be chosen.

This helps me reduce the number of signals that are competing in my world filled with ambiguity and allows me to embrace and leverage low executive functioning. The simple things are often the easiest to manage – coffee? Just take it black. It’s too difficult to pour the right combination of cream and sugar for the exact perfect taste, especially when you’re competing against a variety of different machines, filters, and handlers across the counter at your local Starbucks.

Too many points of failure. Just take it straight up.

This anti-system, if you will, helps me to stay in control – a necessary and manageable acquiescence that allows me to survive through the ambiguity. Relinquish control and you gain it. What an odd but completely rational contradiction. Oh, truly, is the world not one full of paradox and equivocation?

We see through it all. It’s not a mystery. It’s a solvable enigma. We just need some time to figure it out but we’ll get there. We were made to solve seemingly unsolvable conundrums – that’s what makes us aspie creatives and this is what we can teach you.